What have you got to show for it?

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Step 1 of the FI Program has 2 parts to it. The first is finding out how much I’ve earned in my lifetime. The second is what have I got to show for all that money earned?

In other words, I also have to find out my net worth… ‘by creating a balance sheet of assets and liabilities’!

‘For the years you have been working for wages, a certain amount of money has entered your life.’ I guess it’s talking about the first part of Step 1, and I decided not to hassle you with the boring story of my employed life, how long I worked in each job and stories with those jobs SO… I’ve calculated approximately $310,000. That’s not a big number because there were quite a few years that I was just a homemaker.

Checking over my employed life and reliving parts of my past I was surprised to find that through this Step, I may be able to find myself released from the fear of being not enough because I never made enough. It feels subtle, but I’ve always felt like somewhat of a burden to my family because of it. It keeps me from doing, creating, dreaming and trying to put my dreams into fruition however small.

Journeying in the past I found that I know I could’ve done better, but there’s no changing my spending and life decisions. You know what? I even felt some sort of closure from it all. I thanked my past for making me who I am today, and I somewhat believe that it has readied me for the present and hopefully, the future.

All in all, it was both a new and awkward experience to be able to call old co-workers or people that knew me as I worked in said employment areas to reminisce. Mostly strange. Of course, I really wasn’t expecting to reach out to people. Usually I like projects that I can do on my own. You know?

I’m satisfied to say that I’ve done this Step the best I could.

Now back to ‘What have I got to show for it?’ 310,000, although an approximation, made me aware that I have been spending money based on what I THOUGHT I needed when it’s more convenience and to be honest, dumb decisions.

This is still only Step 1. So far, my approximate lifetime earnings are $310,000. As I try to figure out how to do a balance sheet, I’m starting to get both excited and even more scared about what other discoveries I would find. I end with the book saying that I should go through these steps with one attitude in mind: “No Shame, No Blame.”

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About the Author: Bea

Bea is a single parent mommy of a gifted-talented adolescent and another child with speech and learning disability. Her love for understanding, supporting and parenting these extraordinary and peculiar STARS of hers has led to her blog! When she's not surfing, stumbling on her own feet, or spending time with her boys, she's trying her hardest not to be the worst snowboarder in the Rockies.. self improvement, there's always room for self improvement! hehe

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